She asked me to log onto the internet so she could get a stuff animal from the television. She said ‘all you do is fill the toy with water, put the back on, put it in the spin cycle of the washing machine, and then the dryer and it will be all soft and round.” I said “We’re not getting toys from the television” and not wanting to hear “why?” I said “because they’re cheap, they won’t last, they’ll fall apart and then you’ll cry”. She said “No” speaking up like she does with attitude. I then said “Besides, it’ll take 7 days to get here and you’ll forget all about it and it’ll fall apart because it’s cheaply made and then you’ll cry. do you want me to make you cry?”
She said “No” speaking up with the same attitude and then said “But you can just remind me every day about my new toy.” I just can’t ever win can i? I feel like Virgil in the Inferno when he read the sign that said “All ye who enter here, abandon all hope”. Why was that sign not posted outside of the infinite portal of parenthood?
I told her to put her clothes in the laundry and she said “You know daddy, I’m afraid to go into your room because there are ghosts and monsters in there and my mind tells me to think about it and think about it and think about it so I get scared and my mind says hahahahahaha and my mind is mean to me.”
I was at the park with the kids this afternoon and after a while, Leah came up to me and said she wanted to be a pirate because she hid treasure all around the park because she likes digging. I said “you could be an archaeologist when you grow up”. She said “what’s an archaeologist”? I said “they dig all the time”. She said “for dinosaur bones”? I said “yes”. She said “that’s too much work, I want to be a pirate”. I said “but archaeologists get to dig all the time”. She said “but then I would have to come home and take a nap after doing all that digging. I want to be a pirate”. and then she ran off.
Since the child of rage movie has been haunting my thoughts ever since I saw it a few weeks ago, I decided that I just had to create my own set of ambient tracks inspired by the movie. I haven’t released it yet but if any of you would like to hear the finished album, just let me know and I’ll send you a copy without the artwork because that’s all I’m waiting on in order to release it.
In other news, the wife may be getting a different job with a software company that she really likes. It pays a lot more and it’s 70% travel but as a friend pointed out “she doesn’t help with the kids that much so it doesn’t matter”.
I haven’t been so inspired to work on much collaborating with people but I did get some projects done and I’ve been rereleasing a lot of my old stuff on my bandcamp site, music that was out before I had that page up and running.
we had an IEP meeting for the little boy and they’re going to let him take another year in the preschool program he’s currently in but also add some kindergarten so he’ll get the best of both worlds. The school assures us that if he’s not 100% ready for first grade at the end of next year that he can do kindergarten at the school where his sister is going which means that I’ll be walking him to and from school and he won’t be taking the bus.
The teenager is still getting grade notifications of work not being turned in and when I ask him about it, all he says is “I’ll turn it in”
I don’t know, I just feel pretty bla lately and I don’t ever post how I’m feeling about anything personal on things like Facebook because I did that once and my sister said that I deserve better and the wife saw that and said “well now I know what your family thinks of me”. That was maybe a year ago so now I’ve learned to just not say anything about anything to anyone except 1 or two people who I know and even to them, I don’t say much anymore anyway.