Last night my father-in-law texted me for help and I didn’t hear the phone go off even though it was next to my bed and I checked for messages every time I woke up, which was a lot. When I awoke to get the kids up, I saw that he needed help 2 hours earlier and this is the very reason that I feel a facility is best for the very short term. They have people who can attend to every need around the clock and sure, the teenager was able to help but what if he hadn’t heard his text notification go off either? The wife doesn’t ever think of the worst case scenario and I felt bad that I wasn’t able to help but I know that that’s my own issue. I have always been hard on myself but it is what it is, as she likes to say when she’s talking about a characteristic of hers that she can’t change.
It’s not that I don’t want to help and he’s already said that I’ve done the most for him so far out of everyone but during the critical period of recovery, I still wonder if someplace else is better for him? I know that things will get better over time so I just don’t know anymore.
I have a headache and a sore throat and I didn’t sleep well last night. Bla!